Being a mom is one of the hardest yet most rewarding jobs . . . I didn't know coming into motherhood it'd be so dependent on my own growth and evolution as a human. There are so many things to worry about and so many things that can become overwhelming, but I try hard to remind myself what my purpose is as Olive and Owen's mom. For me, it's just to show up - however I am in the moment, to live in the present, instead of in my head worrying and obsessing.
They don't need me to be perfect, to have all of the answers, or to constantly protect them. They just need me to listen with an open mind and love all parts of them with an open heart. Even the parts that sometimes drive me crazy or get me frustrated. It's in those moments, that I know there is a lesson for me to learn or evolve from. I recently read this quote from Dr. Shefali Tsabary, Ph.D - she is the author of “The Awakened Family”, one of my favorite books:
Who doesn’t listen so you learn to tune in.
With one who loves to procrastinate so you learn the beauty of stillness,
With one who forgets things so you learn to let go of attachments,
With one who is extra sensitive so you learn to be more grounded.
With one who is inattentive so you learn to be focused,
With one who dares to rebel so you learn to think outside the box,
With one who feels afraid so you learn to trust the Universe,
May you be blessed with a child . . .
Who teaches you
That it is never about them
And all about you.
If you're a mom, THANK YOU and I send you lots of love and light for giving so much of yourself to your kids and family. And if you're lucky enough to still have your mother in your life, reach out to her and thank her for doing her best to love and raise you.
All I can say is, it's one step at a time. For me - sometimes it feels like I'm taking four steps backwards to get one step ahead. But I'm ready and willing everyday to show up, as my very flawed self, and work to become the mom that Olive and Owen deserve. Because in the process - I'm doing so much for myself as well. They are the blessings in my life that show me how to release control, how to tune in, be still, let go of attachments, be more grounded, be more focused, think outside the box, and trust the Universe. Thank you Olive and Owen for choosing me to be your mom!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!